letters

i have read each letter, one by one, back and forth, up and down. each letter and the next, in pairs, in fours, concatenated, dispersed. each letter phonetically and not. each letter. i have read each letter and found nothing there and everything there... 

you refused to walk down to the river with me, on a moonlit night. you refused to catch me by the waist and twirl me around, giggling. you refused to see me and let me see you. and now letters dance in front of us and nothing makes sense.